feel really blarg today and somewhat frustrated.
People got food at work, i got £180 today for selling my old kitt partial minus tail to rednic but i dont want o get a pizza cus there £15. Its making it worse cus its raining outside and i have no coat and only a shitty tiny poundland umbrella. Now guys in work are eating pizza.
also my throat really hurts after an entire tight of restless sleep. To cap it all off i have told people i would be getting pictures of kitt that i got from joecifur but thinks KEEP GETTIGN IN THE WAY!!!!!!!!!
- 13th-29th working solid and most of them are mids-lates
- if i come home from work past 8 the room is roasting due to windows normally closed and combination of 32" lcd tv, xbox 360, computers and halogin lights on full really heat up the room so not suitable for suiting
- room floor is normally a mess though thats normally partially my fault too
- i dont want my first pics of kitt to be shitty pictures that are of him in a room full of stuff in the background....i want his first picures to be at least semi decent
*whimpers* all in all my day/week/month arnt going to well at all and just been feeling really down and wish i could just have some fun or something except of just wake up, work, food, sleep....
no wonder im an 18st 6lb fat bastard
was ment to go to alton towers on the 30-31st for a late birthday treat but fucked up on the budget and had to cut back so happy birthday present to me.
sorry for the crappy rant but i just feel so low at the moment. would bitch more but its about an object of adult nature and shouldnt really be on here (still thinking of making an adult LJ of just adult stuff about kitt and me) i just want stuff to make me smile and be happy again. I just feel like i have been trying my hardest to make others happy and its kinda been draining me of my happiness
EDIT: in addition i dont even know what the hell i should do. got evil genius on laptop but dont want to play it, got new 360 console but i dont want to touch it.....when im home i just check FA, fchan and lulz.net for funnies then thats it for my time at home....i just shrug and might as well go to sleep. Has my life really become this boring?
EDIT EDIT: is it bad that when ever shirik should be home or getting the moment she leaves work i start mentally whimpering and pawing at my messenger in a slim hope that she will pop online and i can bug her and see how her day was it hopes the stories of her antics may it some way lighten my day and make this sad git of a person just a bit happier for even a spec of a moment?